Tuesday, September 4, 2018

The day my world stood still

September 3rd 2018 will be a day I will always long to forget ever happened but sadly never will. This was the day I lost the biggest part of who I am. Those that were fortunate enough to know her knew she was a great woman who would give you the shirt off her back. My grandma was my whole world. I'm not even sure how I go on from here or if I even want to not to mention that I just dont have it in me to even try. I'm greatful for the wonderful 36 yrs I had with her but I could have had 36 more and it wouldnt have been enough. She was wise in so many ways and always knew just what to say to make me feel better. The one thing I can be certain of is that I picked the right man to be my husband. She truly loved him. She said all the time how lucky we were to have found him and I know she found comfort in knowing that i was taking care of. I wish i could have told her goodbye,  i wish i had just one more hug just one more day. I love you grandma with all of me that is all of you. I love you so much and not a day will pass that I wont.

Wednesday, March 7, 2018

Lisfranc fracture dislocation

Prior to Jan 8th of 2018 I had never even heard of a lisfranc.........
My story begins on December 23rd 2017, I was moving a mattress from one room to another and got it stuck between two rooms, I thought no big deal I will just climb over the box springs and go around and shove it in. (So I thought).... as I was stepping down from the box springs with my left foot I twisted it and tried to catch myself with my right foot. That didn't turn out too well I twisted it too but so much worse than the left. I crawled to the living room or rather drug myself there after I woke up in the floor as I'm sure I passed out for a minute. I got my phone and messaged my husband who took me straight to the er. The er x-rayed my foot and said just a sprain and put me in a boot and gave me a referral. Since it was December 23rd, almost Christmas no one could see me. December 26th I went to a different hospital and again was xrayed and again told it's just a sprain as well as given another referral to a specialist. Again it's around the holidays and No one would see me. On Jan 4th I returned to the er I went to first because it had took on a red tint and was very hot to the touch. The er x-rayed again and tested for blood clots, No clots and again told it was just a sprain. Fast foward to Jan 8th I finally got into a specialist who believed it to be a lisfranc fracture but requested an mri to confirm. The mri was done on Jan 11th and that evening the doctor called and requested no weight bearing and stated it was a severe injury... a lisfranc fracture with dislocation of the first and second metatarsal. I returned to his office within that week and he wanted to do a wait and see approach stated it did not need surgery just remain non-weight bearing for 6 weeks, at my appointment on the 7th week my right foot was still swollen, red and had numbness. The doctor stated he now believed I had complex regional pain syndrome and that is why the foot is not healing on its own and referred me to a neurologist. I used my better judgment this time and called another specialist who luckily was able to see me the very next day which was March 1st 2018. The new doctor said that it is dislocated 2.9 mm and that will not heal on its own it needs and has needed surgery. So Monday 3/5/2018 I had the orif surgery (open reduction internal fixation ) with arthrex tight rope. Let me tell you it hurts so very bad. Im in a constant state of pain. The key is to stay on top of the medicine which I have been trying very hard to do. I'm going to include pictures of what to look for when trying to diagnose this type of injury and will update along the way.... please feel free to share your stories of recovery. Note the bruising on the bottom of the foot , almost always a lisfranc injury. I also learned that the dislocation was pressing on a nerve and may have caused permanent damage due to not treated timely.







I'm now 3 weeks post surgery about 13 weeks since the injury that will become one of the worst things in my past. I had a problem with an allergy to not only the mesh they used but the steri strips that were put in place at post op 2 week follow up and the dermabond glue as well. Currently taking a steroid dose pack and using hydrocortisone cream on the rash. Surgery was horrible and the night stay in the hospital wasn't much better , couldn't have had surgery at much worse of a time than when the country is short on pain meds. To say it was hell is an understatement. I was released on gabapentin and percocet for home which I have almost completely stopped taking, I'm starting to get those dreaded nerve pains as my foot is waking up. When it doesn't hurt it's numb. I'm not sure which is worse. I believe I currently have 3 more weeks before I can begin partial weight-bearing with a boot and then 2 weeks later physical therapy begins. Learning to walk again after 5 months. Today the swelling is down alot, and most of the rash has began to dissappear. 



Today makes 5 weeks and 3 days since surgery and I have actually had a few restful nights sleep. Last night I bumped the fourth toe on my knee Walker so I'm paying for that today , in the way of pain and swelling. Looking more like a foot every day though and next Thursday I start physical therapy. I can't hardly wait. I'm nervous and scared but excited too.
So today Marks 2 days shy of 17 weeks since I took a step on this foot and today was my first day of physical therapy. The physical therapist said in my case it was good I hadn't been able to wear the boot this whole time because my range of motion is good for someone who has been out of commission so long. We did a tennis ball under my foot and I rolled it around with pressure applied as I could tolerate, he also said I could use a frozen water bottle 1 time a day. We did some ankle rolls left and right as well as ice therapy. Let me tell you that wasn't as great as I had hoped it would be. 10 minutes spent icing and my foot felt like it was going to break right off because it was so cold. Today I also took my first 10 to 15 steps with the boot on of course and a walker. Mentally it was great. Physically it was very painful. I didn't put my full weight on it as I stepped. More mental I suppose as I am so scared I will reinjure it. Starting next week I will do physical therapy 2 times a week for a while . The road to recovery is in site. Seems a little more swollen after therapy however.
Today was my 6 week follow up appointment post surgery. The doctor said it looks good which is surprising since I had physical therapy today too. The doctor told me those sweet words I have been wanting to hear for 17 long weeks. You may now walk. Get rid of the boot and go to tennis shoes also no longer use the knee walker. However he did say dont do it if it hurts. Listen to your foot. So I made it to work and took a walk around the halls and back to my office. Worn out when I got back so maybe stick with knee walker this afternoon.
Today I also moved my toes for the first time in awhile. I still have numbness but the doctor said that is going to take a long time to go away. So I'm not there yet but I'm getting there.
Here i am week 10 been going to therapy twice a week.
Physical therapy today..... so we didnt do a whole lot of hard labor intensive stuff. Rode the bike for 10 min. Did a few stretches and he could see that my right ankle still doesnt have the dorsial flexion it should. He says he believes it to be two things, one there is a bone that runs down the calf and sometimes after an injury gets sort of locked in place so he attempted to get it to pop stubborn thing just wouldnt do it. Also the calf muscle is entirely too tight so the next thing we did was something like acupunture except the needles latched onto the muscle thatruns down my leg trigger point dry needling i believe its called. From there he put electrodes on it to try and loosen the muscle. Felt weird had my foot jumping. Doesnt feel any better after but he said may take a few times. As for now I was told to stay on two crutches.
I haven't posted in a while and today I am 3 months post op. I put the crutches down and am currently walking without them but still have a limp and a pain level of about 3. Still dealing with daily swelling and problems finding a comfortable shoe. However any progress is better than no progress so i will take it.



Friday, August 25, 2017

Helping others to show that good is still in the world

Mostly we spend our lives only thinking of how things are for us and our family or at least I do, but then something happens and you realize the life you live or the problems you have are so small compared to those of others. A sweet young child I learned of today is having some complications and is at Children's hospital now , the child has medicaid so her bills will paid for. However, her mother just had back surgery and has not left her side. Her vehicle is broken down and barely even has a change of clothes or money to eat for herself. Now from what I have heard, medicaid will pay for her to eat too, however because the neurologist won't come to the hospital the mother had to check herself and her daughter out to go to him which starts the time over again (because you have to be their so many days before they will pay). I'm goin to attach a link to her funding page in hopes for a little help for this family because I have to believe that this world is not all evil and there are people out there that care.Let's show this family how we care please click on the link to support.


Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Sammy's Song: Musical treasures from a trash collector

Sammy's Song: Musical treasures from a trash collector: SHERMAN, TX -- We've all heard the saying, 'there's more than meets the eye.'  That's just one way to describe Sammy Mantuano, who by day drives a garbage truck in Sherman.

Sherman trash collector pursues musical dream

Sherman trash collector pursues musical dream: No One Gets You Closer in Texoma by providing Local News, Severe Weather Updates, and Sports information for Ada, OK, Ardmore, OK, Durant, OK, Denison, TX and Sherman, TX.



My husband, my best friend, the one I speak so highly of.

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

My Best friend

I spend a lot of time talking about my grandma and how she means more to me than anyone in the world. While I have always leaned on her and looked to her for guidance and felt as though no one could ever have my heart the way she does and no one could ever completely understand me the way she does, there is one person who reigns in really close. Who you ask? My husband, Sammy Mantuano. I have spent the better part of today thinking about just how much I love him and how somehow when I was busy with work or home life or just everyday routine  I not only fell in love with him, I learned to rely on him and to turn to him when I was in need of a friend or good advice. "Love" that one word that I really thought I could never completely feel for anyone. I don't always have the right words to say or make the best choices but yet somehow he loves me anyways.  The hundreds of times I have been sick or in trouble he would go to the ends of the earth 10 times and back again just make it all better. The man who works two jobs seven days a week and does it with a smile all so we can have the things we have and afford the health care I always seem to need. How could there ever be anyone that compares to grandma I always told myself and yet here he is and I'm married to him. We don't always see eye to eye and lord knows we have had our fights. I remember I use to get so mad at him I would take off walking but I always knew he would come to find me until one day he didnt. Imagine how mad I was when I walked back home. But see he knew before even I did that we are the perfect pair. Equally tempered, giving and kind. And he knew if he didnt come for me,  I would come back. One half of my heart belongs to grandma and the other half belongs to my wonderful husband who doesn't do anything halfway. I have always looked at bales of hay and thought of us. I'm the messy pile that looks half put together and he the neatly woven bale without a single piece out of place and together we make it work through the good times and the bad. To my best friend thank you for always looking out for me and taking such good care of me when I'm not well.  But most of all Thank you for staying when so many times it would have been easier for you to walk away.

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I love you the mostest.

Monday, August 3, 2015

Vera Adeline Dutton



Who in this world do you inspire to be?
I remember my childhood like it was yesterday and that memory is one thing I'm grateful to have. Growing up would have been so much different without my grandma she was always there with a guiding hand and an open heart.


 I was her shadow she would say where she went I went even when she worked. She took care of elderly sick people and I remember this one lady said tell that little girl with the big eyes to stop looking at me it creeps me out. Of course grandma just scooped me right up and told me I didn't have big eyes they were her eyes and she loved them. Oh how I love her. All the mud pies she pretended to eat and the paper dolls and dress up. As I grew up and took a job and a life of my own she always knew the right words to say when I was having a bad day. She would say Becky some people just can't help it. Or now Becky you can't have hate in your heart, you have to let that go. 

I have learned to do that as I have gotten older I just think well they can't help their stupid selves and then I think no Becky don't call them stupid that's just mean and hateful and remember what grandma taught you. All the stories she would tell. 


I love her stories I could hear them over and over again. If there is one person in this entire world I want to be when I grow up (if that ever happens) is my grandma my heart and my soul without her I don't know who I would be. To one she may be just somebody but to me she is my world.